PluSugars

By experience, most SDs want a thinner SB, average to be precise. I had one real SD who'd always ask if I'm working out and how much weight I'd lost. I actually gained while I was with him, and hated that I subjected myself to this. A few others told me how cute I am, but I'm not there type, sizewise. (Despite my profile label of "cuddly", they still attempted communication. Possibly, they overlooked it?) At any rate, I don't think plus sugars should be worried about whether or the SD world is for is. There's someone out there for everyone... You never know if you don't try. Hang in there, it took me half a year to find the RIGHT SD!(No longer seeing him. Lasted about 1 1/2yrs.) It might not take that long for you! Don't settle, and be patient!

Full Speed Ahead

NOLA Update: So, my phone is going out! Ugh! I explain this to NOLA, and he sends me money to get a new one. Well, another issue presented itself. I think I need new tires... So, now, I do not want to spend hundreds of dollars on a new phone when I need an entire set of tires.. What to do? I think I will purchase the tires, and get the new phone when I get paid next week?

NYC: I don't know. NOLA pushed it back to the second week of December. So, my hopes about that are low... SD Sitings: So, I have been getting very little responses from sd4me, and SA. (I'm taking extreme pride in being a plus size sb, and have displayed myself according on my profiles.) However, I remembered a fellow blogger writing about AM, and I decided to sign up for it again... (I was signed up last year when I at a lower weight, and met up with a guy. He seemed to be displeased with me in person, and he never contacted me afterwards. So, I deleted my account.) Now, I have been getting great responses, and I've only been on the site for a week!!! I've already met three POTs, who I will name after more is confirmed. Perhaps, one of them can buy my new phone, and the other can give me his black card? Lol. Jk, but we'll see. :) XOXO Sabie

NYC and Sugar Update

NYC: So, nothing is booked yet, but he maintains that it will happen. He supposedly has work up there, and will be traveling their this month for it. I met him in Chicago last month. It was a good time. I met in downtown, and he noticed I did not have on any outerwear in the windy city. So, we went to find me something. We ended up deciding on a North Face vest.(I later exchanged it for a jacket. Lol.) The next day we drove to the city of his alma mater. It was refreshing to be in a college town. I'm missing that life, and I think he is as well.

Sugar: I had deleted all of my profiles, and was not going to dip anymore. However, I visited an old college friend, who never left the game, and became intrigued again. Aaaaah! Why can't I just be done! It's just something about older men that attracts me. Just signed up moments ago, and I already have a potential mate in mind! ~going where the wind takes me~

Just the Two of US...

NOLA So, we're going to NY!!! Well, supposedly, we are. I am not confirming it until, the flight is booked! He wants to go to a Giants game, and I just want to go to NY! So, he said he is going to set everything up for early October. However, what about September? Haha! We were supposed to go to San Francisco. I know he a busy guy, but um.... Lol. At any rate, I began this post because I am endeavoring on a complete lifestyle change! I have been so unhealthy since moving back home, over a year ago now! Of course, I would like to get back to the weight I was then, but I also wanted to put healthy habits in place that will last forever, and not just until I have another depressive bout. In addition, I cannot go to New York feeling so sluggish!!! Lol.

Please, Don't Kill My Vibe(Quick Update)

I am officially not a sugar baby, anymore. I have been working for the last six months. I do not like it, but my bills are getting paid. Everything is going ok without the sugar life. I just have to remind myself, I do not need to be apart of that world. I can make it on my own. My life is good right now. I am on the path to be the healthy me, I was before it all. I am also thinking about a career change, which means I'm headed back to school, or Hollywood! Lol. We'll see. I continue to communicate with NOLA. We saw one another this past June, when he flew me to Vegas, and met me there for my birthday. I had a good time. However, I have been going to church, and trying to get my life a bit more stable, on the "straight and narrow". So, I deleted my sugar baby accounts, and I'm trying to find any other accounts that I might have missed. "I am not going to lie, it was hard leaving the sugar world. Every so often, I have thoughts of relapsing. Lol. Don't laugh! Omg! It is crazy that I think that way, but the life of a sb is addicting." ~Sabie Back to NOLA... We still talk, as I stated above, and I was supposed to see him today, but something came up. The thing with NOLA is, I do not see him as a sugar daddy. He is not a sugar daddy. He is a friend, and a confidant. In fact, if he did not care about what people think, I would not mind being in a committed relationship with him. I know that sounds crazy, right?! At any rate, I have been on a few regular dates, and they were all average. Of course, I have not found a guy as of now. Nothing compares when one has lived the sugar life, and that was a minimal/basic sugar life. However, I try to realize that every guy will not have everything. I mean, what I want is love, not sugar. Ultimately, that is the only thing I ever wanted, a guy by my side. Until next time! XOXO Sabie

Interesting Update

So, guess who's starting to contact me? Yep, it's NOLA. I guess his desired thin sugar babies aren't turning out to be what he expected!! (No offense to thin sugar babies! I still wish I were one! Lol.) At any rate, he's supposedly in the hospital for a reason I do not feel like discussing. (Nothing deadly, he's doing well.) I'm not sure what to do because he is starting to imply that we continue where we left off from. He actually still asks me if I've been working out, and implies that I "probably look good now". The nerve of him!!! (I'm actually 20lbs heavier than the last time he saw me, which is 40lbs heavier than when we met! Take that NOLA! Actually, that is not very healthy on my end.. Gotta love being depressed, right?!) Anyway, I just can't believe he is trying to get me back. My first mind, is saying, " HELL TO THE NO!!! I mean, he did leave me hanging with a no clue as to what went wrong! He did not even send a text!! On the other hand, he asked about my car.(We talked about my need of a new one on multiple occasions.) So, I told him, it's pretty much the same as before. He response, well, maybe I can help you with that when I get out of the hospital. Hmmm, I do need a new car, and I'm also trying to move out of my mom's. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IN THIS SITUATION!?!?

Unexpected Update on NOLA

So, of course, I was just being ubber paranoid. Everything, physical wellbeing, checks out okay! That was a lesson learned. Of course, it's always the hard way with me, but better now that later! Before I got things checked out, I sent NOLA a text asking why was he so deceitful. I've been trying to refrain from texting SDs that drop me, but I needed closure from this situation. He, out of nowhere, just stopped contacting me. At any rate, he tells me he's sorry for his abrupt nature, and that he is battling prostate cancer.  Of course, I'm sympathetic of this, but still question why he just did not tell me this in the first place. It kind of makes sense because he said he is in a hospital in Houston, and he had been traveling there a lot. Not only that, but I'm wondering if this was the business he was taking care before I joined him in Texas, last year. At any rate, this does not explain why he was still visiting the site. I mean, do you think he was just there to look at girls? Perhaps, he did not want to pay my flight to see him. So, he found a sugar baby in Houston, or super close? Idk, but whatever the circumstance, he should have told me when it occurred. I was so distraught, as you can tell from my earlier post. I really went into a self conscious state of mind that I had not seen in years! Yes, I know I should not let anyone's actions influence that, but it did. I can't help it, but I'm working on it! Hope all is well with you lovely! P.S. Not sure if I said so already, but I have a job!! I officially started last week with training, and received my first case yesterday! I'm very excited, if you can't tell! :)