Just the Two of US...

NOLA So, we're going to NY!!! Well, supposedly, we are. I am not confirming it until, the flight is booked! He wants to go to a Giants game, and I just want to go to NY! So, he said he is going to set everything up for early October. However, what about September? Haha! We were supposed to go to San Francisco. I know he a busy guy, but um.... Lol. At any rate, I began this post because I am endeavoring on a complete lifestyle change! I have been so unhealthy since moving back home, over a year ago now! Of course, I would like to get back to the weight I was then, but I also wanted to put healthy habits in place that will last forever, and not just until I have another depressive bout. In addition, I cannot go to New York feeling so sluggish!!! Lol.

Interesting Update

So, guess who's starting to contact me? Yep, it's NOLA. I guess his desired thin sugar babies aren't turning out to be what he expected!! (No offense to thin sugar babies! I still wish I were one! Lol.) At any rate, he's supposedly in the hospital for a reason I do not feel like discussing. (Nothing deadly, he's doing well.) I'm not sure what to do because he is starting to imply that we continue where we left off from. He actually still asks me if I've been working out, and implies that I "probably look good now". The nerve of him!!! (I'm actually 20lbs heavier than the last time he saw me, which is 40lbs heavier than when we met! Take that NOLA! Actually, that is not very healthy on my end.. Gotta love being depressed, right?!) Anyway, I just can't believe he is trying to get me back. My first mind, is saying, " HELL TO THE NO!!! I mean, he did leave me hanging with a no clue as to what went wrong! He did not even send a text!! On the other hand, he asked about my car.(We talked about my need of a new one on multiple occasions.) So, I told him, it's pretty much the same as before. He response, well, maybe I can help you with that when I get out of the hospital. Hmmm, I do need a new car, and I'm also trying to move out of my mom's. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IN THIS SITUATION!?!?

Ir o no ir es el problema....

So, I met up with a POT last night. We went out for one of my favorites, Indian food! All went well, but he said he wouldn't be available until January. The idea of keeping in touch until our next outing do come up. However, I just don't know how interested he is. I feel he should be making more of an effort. That is, if he really wants me as his sb. So, I'm not so sure if I should leave or stick around for a bit longer?! I mean, we've met up twice for dinner, and have been communicating since September!

This brings me to my next dilemma! He has yet to ask what I'm looking for!!! Expectations, allowance, nothing of the sort has come up yet! I read in a blog that this should be the topic of conversation by the second date, at most. The third day is a stretch.

Furthermore, he doesn't really provide me with any professional advice. He asked about how my job search was going, and I told him I had a few interviews last week. However, nothing stemmed from them. He just nodded, and said "yea, it can be tough." I asked him his perspective on where I might be going wrong, and he gave me a mediocre answer. "Employers, most of the time, are looking for experienced candidates, but they will not take a chance to give you that experience." Well, duh! It's one of the reasons I'm having a hard time finding a job. This is a masters educated guy! I'm sure he has more knowledge than that for me!

He seemed bored throughout the entire date. To think of it, we were supposed to see a movie afterwards, but he said he was tired. So, maybe he was just really tired, and just a bit spacey for the night. I'm not sure what to do! Especially, since Xmas is coming up, and I definitely want something from my SDs! I want to go into the new year with a stacked bank account!