NYC and Sugar Update

NYC: So, nothing is booked yet, but he maintains that it will happen. He supposedly has work up there, and will be traveling their this month for it. I met him in Chicago last month. It was a good time. I met in downtown, and he noticed I did not have on any outerwear in the windy city. So, we went to find me something. We ended up deciding on a North Face vest.(I later exchanged it for a jacket. Lol.) The next day we drove to the city of his alma mater. It was refreshing to be in a college town. I'm missing that life, and I think he is as well.

Sugar: I had deleted all of my profiles, and was not going to dip anymore. However, I visited an old college friend, who never left the game, and became intrigued again. Aaaaah! Why can't I just be done! It's just something about older men that attracts me. Just signed up moments ago, and I already have a potential mate in mind! ~going where the wind takes me~

Just the Two of US...

NOLA So, we're going to NY!!! Well, supposedly, we are. I am not confirming it until, the flight is booked! He wants to go to a Giants game, and I just want to go to NY! So, he said he is going to set everything up for early October. However, what about September? Haha! We were supposed to go to San Francisco. I know he a busy guy, but um.... Lol. At any rate, I began this post because I am endeavoring on a complete lifestyle change! I have been so unhealthy since moving back home, over a year ago now! Of course, I would like to get back to the weight I was then, but I also wanted to put healthy habits in place that will last forever, and not just until I have another depressive bout. In addition, I cannot go to New York feeling so sluggish!!! Lol.

Interesting Update

So, guess who's starting to contact me? Yep, it's NOLA. I guess his desired thin sugar babies aren't turning out to be what he expected!! (No offense to thin sugar babies! I still wish I were one! Lol.) At any rate, he's supposedly in the hospital for a reason I do not feel like discussing. (Nothing deadly, he's doing well.) I'm not sure what to do because he is starting to imply that we continue where we left off from. He actually still asks me if I've been working out, and implies that I "probably look good now". The nerve of him!!! (I'm actually 20lbs heavier than the last time he saw me, which is 40lbs heavier than when we met! Take that NOLA! Actually, that is not very healthy on my end.. Gotta love being depressed, right?!) Anyway, I just can't believe he is trying to get me back. My first mind, is saying, " HELL TO THE NO!!! I mean, he did leave me hanging with a no clue as to what went wrong! He did not even send a text!! On the other hand, he asked about my car.(We talked about my need of a new one on multiple occasions.) So, I told him, it's pretty much the same as before. He response, well, maybe I can help you with that when I get out of the hospital. Hmmm, I do need a new car, and I'm also trying to move out of my mom's. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IN THIS SITUATION!?!?

Unexpected Update on NOLA

So, of course, I was just being ubber paranoid. Everything, physical wellbeing, checks out okay! That was a lesson learned. Of course, it's always the hard way with me, but better now that later! Before I got things checked out, I sent NOLA a text asking why was he so deceitful. I've been trying to refrain from texting SDs that drop me, but I needed closure from this situation. He, out of nowhere, just stopped contacting me. At any rate, he tells me he's sorry for his abrupt nature, and that he is battling prostate cancer.  Of course, I'm sympathetic of this, but still question why he just did not tell me this in the first place. It kind of makes sense because he said he is in a hospital in Houston, and he had been traveling there a lot. Not only that, but I'm wondering if this was the business he was taking care before I joined him in Texas, last year. At any rate, this does not explain why he was still visiting the site. I mean, do you think he was just there to look at girls? Perhaps, he did not want to pay my flight to see him. So, he found a sugar baby in Houston, or super close? Idk, but whatever the circumstance, he should have told me when it occurred. I was so distraught, as you can tell from my earlier post. I really went into a self conscious state of mind that I had not seen in years! Yes, I know I should not let anyone's actions influence that, but it did. I can't help it, but I'm working on it! Hope all is well with you lovely! P.S. Not sure if I said so already, but I have a job!! I officially started last week with training, and received my first case yesterday! I'm very excited, if you can't tell! :)