Full Speed Ahead

NOLA Update: So, my phone is going out! Ugh! I explain this to NOLA, and he sends me money to get a new one. Well, another issue presented itself. I think I need new tires... So, now, I do not want to spend hundreds of dollars on a new phone when I need an entire set of tires.. What to do? I think I will purchase the tires, and get the new phone when I get paid next week?

NYC: I don't know. NOLA pushed it back to the second week of December. So, my hopes about that are low... SD Sitings: So, I have been getting very little responses from sd4me, and SA. (I'm taking extreme pride in being a plus size sb, and have displayed myself according on my profiles.) However, I remembered a fellow blogger writing about AM, and I decided to sign up for it again... (I was signed up last year when I at a lower weight, and met up with a guy. He seemed to be displeased with me in person, and he never contacted me afterwards. So, I deleted my account.) Now, I have been getting great responses, and I've only been on the site for a week!!! I've already met three POTs, who I will name after more is confirmed. Perhaps, one of them can buy my new phone, and the other can give me his black card? Lol. Jk, but we'll see. :) XOXO Sabie

NYC and Sugar Update

NYC: So, nothing is booked yet, but he maintains that it will happen. He supposedly has work up there, and will be traveling their this month for it. I met him in Chicago last month. It was a good time. I met in downtown, and he noticed I did not have on any outerwear in the windy city. So, we went to find me something. We ended up deciding on a North Face vest.(I later exchanged it for a jacket. Lol.) The next day we drove to the city of his alma mater. It was refreshing to be in a college town. I'm missing that life, and I think he is as well.

Sugar: I had deleted all of my profiles, and was not going to dip anymore. However, I visited an old college friend, who never left the game, and became intrigued again. Aaaaah! Why can't I just be done! It's just something about older men that attracts me. Just signed up moments ago, and I already have a potential mate in mind! ~going where the wind takes me~

Just the Two of US...

NOLA So, we're going to NY!!! Well, supposedly, we are. I am not confirming it until, the flight is booked! He wants to go to a Giants game, and I just want to go to NY! So, he said he is going to set everything up for early October. However, what about September? Haha! We were supposed to go to San Francisco. I know he a busy guy, but um.... Lol. At any rate, I began this post because I am endeavoring on a complete lifestyle change! I have been so unhealthy since moving back home, over a year ago now! Of course, I would like to get back to the weight I was then, but I also wanted to put healthy habits in place that will last forever, and not just until I have another depressive bout. In addition, I cannot go to New York feeling so sluggish!!! Lol.

Interesting Update

So, guess who's starting to contact me? Yep, it's NOLA. I guess his desired thin sugar babies aren't turning out to be what he expected!! (No offense to thin sugar babies! I still wish I were one! Lol.) At any rate, he's supposedly in the hospital for a reason I do not feel like discussing. (Nothing deadly, he's doing well.) I'm not sure what to do because he is starting to imply that we continue where we left off from. He actually still asks me if I've been working out, and implies that I "probably look good now". The nerve of him!!! (I'm actually 20lbs heavier than the last time he saw me, which is 40lbs heavier than when we met! Take that NOLA! Actually, that is not very healthy on my end.. Gotta love being depressed, right?!) Anyway, I just can't believe he is trying to get me back. My first mind, is saying, " HELL TO THE NO!!! I mean, he did leave me hanging with a no clue as to what went wrong! He did not even send a text!! On the other hand, he asked about my car.(We talked about my need of a new one on multiple occasions.) So, I told him, it's pretty much the same as before. He response, well, maybe I can help you with that when I get out of the hospital. Hmmm, I do need a new car, and I'm also trying to move out of my mom's. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IN THIS SITUATION!?!?

Gambling on Change!

My Profile Changes

 

     Sorry, if I confused those following this blog!!! I had to change a few things on my profile because I left my phone out, and I think someone might have seen my blog. I am not ashamed of this blog, but I would not like certain people(Father, Sds, POTs, etc.) to see.

My Work Life

     I am still jobless. However, one of my SDs kind of offered me a job. The job will not be available until next year. So, I still need something in the meantime. Besides, we might not be in contact next year! I've been checking into different certifications that will help me with my search. I also went on an application spree yesterday, and I'm hoping something comes through! I have been home for four months, and I am sick to my stomach not being able to use my degree!

POTs

     So, since I posted last week, I have chatted with six different POTs!!! I am assuming that out of them all, I will probably actively pursue two! I've exchanged numbers with four of them. So far, only three of the four has had time to talk. I have a date this Thursday with one of them, Mr. Casino, at a casino. Lol. He is hoping I'll be his good luck charm, and I'm hoping I'll get lucky as well! ;) (I'm actually texting him, and Mr. Impatient, as I type this!) Jaja!

     Mr. Impatient just asked for nude photos! My response, "No, way, buddy!" Wth?! We've literally just exchanged numbers a few days ago!! I just asked him if that was a dealbreaker, and he said no. However, he also asked what does my free time look like! Hmmm, I'll have to be careful with him.

     At any rate, I don't have any other dates confirmed as of now! We'll see how things go with Mr. Casino. He seems sweet, but he's an older guy. Yea, most are, but I'm not used to them looking as old! Hehe. Until next time!!!

Ir o no ir es el problema....

So, I met up with a POT last night. We went out for one of my favorites, Indian food! All went well, but he said he wouldn't be available until January. The idea of keeping in touch until our next outing do come up. However, I just don't know how interested he is. I feel he should be making more of an effort. That is, if he really wants me as his sb. So, I'm not so sure if I should leave or stick around for a bit longer?! I mean, we've met up twice for dinner, and have been communicating since September!

This brings me to my next dilemma! He has yet to ask what I'm looking for!!! Expectations, allowance, nothing of the sort has come up yet! I read in a blog that this should be the topic of conversation by the second date, at most. The third day is a stretch.

Furthermore, he doesn't really provide me with any professional advice. He asked about how my job search was going, and I told him I had a few interviews last week. However, nothing stemmed from them. He just nodded, and said "yea, it can be tough." I asked him his perspective on where I might be going wrong, and he gave me a mediocre answer. "Employers, most of the time, are looking for experienced candidates, but they will not take a chance to give you that experience." Well, duh! It's one of the reasons I'm having a hard time finding a job. This is a masters educated guy! I'm sure he has more knowledge than that for me!

He seemed bored throughout the entire date. To think of it, we were supposed to see a movie afterwards, but he said he was tired. So, maybe he was just really tired, and just a bit spacey for the night. I'm not sure what to do! Especially, since Xmas is coming up, and I definitely want something from my SDs! I want to go into the new year with a stacked bank account!